Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Self-hate

The black dog is biting me again.  I feel like I can't do anything right for anyone.

Hello, I hate myself.  Hello, I wish I was dead.  Hello, I won't take my own life because it's not a legacy I want to leave my kids and granddaughter.

NOTHING - I mean NOTHING - stops the cycle.

School - I'm lazy.  I'm not smart.  I can't even do dumbass math.  I can't act.  I loathe writing papers.

Professional - You have to be kidding.  You, a professional?  You can't even fold a fucking sweater.

Family - Abusive.  Stupid.  Unseeing.  Denying.

Partner - too fat to fuck.



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